colortwelve wrote:Well, it's been forever since I've been around here to activate attention whore mode, but eh.
I just feel like shit right now. No idea why. I tried working on a song and got next to nothing done in the ~3 hours I spent in FL. I've been having headaches daily for over a week now, and I'm pretty sure that's only because I decided to drink out of a smaller fucking coffee mug. First day back to school was alright, I definitely missed seeing all of my IRL friends, but I did little more than sit around for the better part of each class. And tomorrow are my two hard-as-fuck classes, neither of which I'm looking forward to. And there's the idea that this is my last semester of high school. After this, I have to deal with my goddamn future, which I feel like I've prepared for awfully, if at all. I expect to horribly choke at my audition for Berklee, which means I'll probably be stuck with a crappy school. And most of my friends desperately want to at least get out of this town, while I'm only even applying to two school out of the fucking state. And since I'll be juggling inevitably challenging college courses and music, and will probably have to be careful with whatever financial aid I end up getting, and since I'm seeing family in two states this coming summer before heading off to school, there's no spot in the foreseeable future when I'll have anything resembling a chance to go and see my boyfriend at the other fucking end of the country.
Sigh.
Normally I have little trouble acting like everything's fine, and that everything will work out nicely. What the fuck happened.
First off, school is not the end all be all. Yes, it is good and can open doors, but keep in mind, in the music industry, skill, hard work, and competence are king. The rest will follow.
And hey, you are applying to Berklee?! Thats kickass, so did I! What instrument/major are you going for? I can give you ideas about what the audition is like. You should realize that for most instruments, it isn't all that hard to get in.
