The hugging/venting thread

[vladnuke]

I've had to make some difficult decisions regarding music, my life, and my job (to say the least and keep it vague). I've got a tour coming up at the end of the month, and I don't even want to go. I'm realizing how much my doing music has been an expense to me, and there needs to be a huge change.

Seeing performances and hearing music whose levels I will likely never reach used to be a motivator for me, but now I just can't shake the feeling that all my efforts have been for nothing. I can't keep up the expenses and going out of my way to make things work anymore, and I just can't get myself out of this bitter quagmire of emotions that has pretty much turned me into a complete asshole on the verge of a breakdown. I want to, but this apathy is becoming too strong. I just don't want to do anything anymore, because it all just seems like a waste of my time and resources, especially to perform live.

I've got to address these issues, but I want to do so with a clear head. The tour hasn't even begun, and already don't want to go. Not even sure how to talk about these issues with all the musicians depending on me to make things work and keep our efforts functional. Too much on my shoulders. I just want to give up and follow the suggestions of Mr. Zevon:

Well, seeing as you're at the level where you can even consider doing tours, I'd say you've got a bright future. All I have to say is, evaluate your opporitunity costs. How much do you expect to gain from the tour?

[Captain Ironhelm]

Had a project I had that was going very well, and then suddenly FL crashes and I lost it all since I forgot to save. Can be quite frustrating to simply lose information.

[CommandSpry]

^ First world problems

[vladnuke]

Today I learned that people really can't be trusted to do the simplest fucking things. Apparently my teacher can't read. Yesterday I was sick, but I needed to turn in a permission slip for an all day field trip that the whole school was going on. And so I handed my slip to my friend, and told him to give it to the teacher. Today, apparently despite my friends claims to the contrary, the teacher never got the paper so I don't get to go. There's nothing to do in school today. The place is empty. It could've been a fun day, but someone somewhere fucked it up for me. So, as of right now, I am not trusting anyone for anything anymore.

[itroitnyah]

Today I learned that people really can't be trusted to do the simplest fucking things. Apparently my teacher can't read. Yesterday I was sick, but I needed to turn in a permission slip for an all day field trip that the whole school was going on. And so I handed my slip to my friend, and told him to give it to the teacher. Today, apparently despite my friends claims to the contrary, the teacher never got the paper so I don't get to go. There's nothing to do in school today. The place is empty. It could've been a fun day, but someone somewhere fucked it up for me. So, as of right now, I am not trusting anyone for anything anymore.

You know what you do then? Leave school, sit in front of your computer, and just don't give a fuck. Browse youtube, funnyjunk, 4chan, memebase, reddit, wherever you like. Watch fail videos until they aren't funny anymore, watch car crash videos until they're boring, watching win videos until they're boring, browse one of those sites listed above until there's nothing new or funny. Play a game on your computer or game console. Like, burnout paradise city or skate 3 or gta4 especially, some game where you can just crash into stuff and take your rage out on non physical things, and then get a good laugh out of it while you do so.

Or, just goof around in the software you use. Don't try and get a certain sound, don't try to intentionally make anything. Just pick a waveform, then apply filters and effects and pitches and whatnot. And then when you make something that sounds interesting, save it, reset, and repeat. No longer think "how do I do this?" but instead "what happens if I do this?" and take yourself on a synth adventure.

The point I'm trying to make is don't dwell on what you can't do, but focus on what you CAN do. If I made you more angry or something, then I apologize.

[Nine Volt]

Sorry, but I don't see how that was relevant to what he posted at all.

[itroitnyah]

Sorry, but I don't see how that was relevant to what he posted at all.

I was just trying to offer him some ways to alleviate the stress of the situation he was in ._.

But now hold on, don't go all pulling out the "he ain't sorry" gun and firing willy-nilly. Everybody can use a good cheer-er up-er when they're angry or depressed so the best I can do is offer solutions.

Something you thought would be informative or relate to this reply

[MorteMcAdaver]

Today I learned that people really can't be trusted to do the simplest fucking things. Apparently my teacher can't read. Yesterday I was sick, but I needed to turn in a permission slip for an all day field trip that the whole school was going on. And so I handed my slip to my friend, and told him to give it to the teacher. Today, apparently despite my friends claims to the contrary, the teacher never got the paper so I don't get to go. There's nothing to do in school today. The place is empty. It could've been a fun day, but someone somewhere fucked it up for me. So, as of right now, I am not trusting anyone for anything anymore.

I'm almost in my thirties, and I can attest to how most people are definitely not trustworthy. Then again, you're still young and finding out who is deserving of your trust and who isn't. I know it's hard to let go and place your confidence in another, but when it happens, it's downright euphoric, and it usually means you've found a true friend.

There are very few people I trust in my life, but there are at least that select group, and that counts for a lot; you have many years to establish lasting and symbiotic relationships with others.

[Freewave]

Yeah vladnuke don't give up on the possibility of friendship. Hell you're in the wrong community if you think Friendship is tragic. That said the people i'm really close to are a select few. Figure out who will be there for you in the thick and thin and that's really who you need to have as your friends. I had some horrible friends in high school and took a lot of crap i didn't need to. Stand up for yourself and look outside of your current crew if you can't count on people inside your current circle.

Also keep in mind if it's the teacher's fault that he lost the permission slip after he was handed it then you dropped a perfectly good friendship. You could have handed it in when you got to school yourself vs making it someone else's responsibility then your own and blaming them with the outcome. It's up to you if you believe your friend or the teacher but you could avoid such situations next time.

[Nine Volt]

MODS
Y U LOCK VINYL CRUSH EVIL VINYL SCRATCH THREAD????
ME AND GHOST WERE HAVING A NICE CHAT ABOUT VINYL/OCTAVIA BDSM
WTF IM SO PISSED GAAAH

[Magnitude Zero]

MODS
Y U LOCK VINYL CRUSH EVIL VINYL SCRATCH THREAD????
ME AND GHOST WERE HAVING A NICE CHAT ABOUT VINYL/OCTAVIA BDSM
WTF IM SO PISSED GAAAH

I actually agree, although for entirely different reasons. Someone had a legitimate idea and wanted to share it. I don't see why they couldn't have just deleted the off-topic posts (which I can only assume are the reason it was locked, considering they didn't even explain their reasoning) and issued a warning or something. Instead they just mocked the idea and locked it without explaining why. Kind of unfair and downright rude, if you ask me. Personally, after seeing some of the sketches, I was interested in seeing where the whole "Vinyl Crush" thing would end up.

[vladnuke]

Well, to be honest, Idk who's at fault here. I was pissed at the time because I knew that there weren't going to be many field trips (senior year, no really fun field trippy classes), and that I screwed it up by trying to rely on my friends and teachers to make sure that I could go. I still trust my friend (I've known him for 4 years), and I'm far more inclined to place this one on the teachers (which in the past have forgotten field trip slips and the like) than my friend. So it's not that I'm no longer trusting anyone, it's that I'm no longer going to rely on anyone. I should have just gave him a photocopy and brought the original with me. I mean, I can forgive people. It's just, I got really pissed because this means that the teacher in question must have not even looked at the piece of paper handed to him. Basically somewhere there was a serious lack of communication, and I faced the consequences of it, and that's why I was pissed. But I really don't care anymore, and frankly after what happened (the buses got held up as they searched for my slip), I don't think the teacher in question would do something like that again.

[SilverLeaf.B]

Here's what I have to say about friendship: There are only a few people who you truly are friends with, if any. Most of us have no TRUE friends.Here's Aristotle on the subject: http://www.publicbookshelf.com/public_h ... e_bdd.html

[VINXIS]

This weekend. My main laptop decided to crash on me and now, it only works on safe mode. So I'm switching computers and timed myself. It's been taking 8 hours and I'm still not done halfway :\

[Nine Volt]

MODS
Y U LOCK VINYL CRUSH EVIL VINYL SCRATCH THREAD????
ME AND GHOST WERE HAVING A NICE CHAT ABOUT VINYL/OCTAVIA BDSM
WTF IM SO PISSED GAAAH

I actually agree, although for entirely different reasons. Someone had a legitimate idea and wanted to share it. I don't see why they couldn't have just deleted the off-topic posts (which I can only assume are the reason it was locked, considering they didn't even explain their reasoning) and issued a warning or something. Instead they just mocked the idea and locked it without explaining why. Kind of unfair and downright rude, if you ask me. Personally, after seeing some of the sketches, I was interested in seeing where the whole "Vinyl Crush" thing would end up.

We were getting kinda off topic TBH, but yeah it would've been nice of them to at least tell us. At least Chromatic got away with telling a mod to shut up

[nOk]

I can't keep up with anything. I'm in highschool, so my classes aren't really too difficult. However, at the beginning of the year, we each had to shell out $500 to buy an iPad. Yep, this year they decided to be a technology based school. Sounds cool, right? Nope. The teachers, not knowing how to handle the new piece of tech in the classroom, have been assigning obscene amounts of homework to everyone, under the impression that we can just look stuff up. Yeah, that really helps with writing 1000 word essays daily. They system is also pretty much broken. We cant get apps, half the apps we have don't work, if anything happens to them, we need to pay for it (regardless what happens to it), and everything about it is stressful. Well, other than that, I started taking composition lessons from the head of electronic music at my local university! Yay! Every week he has me make another piece of music, with specific guidelines. The problem is I don't have any freaking time to make music! If I make music, my grades suffer. If I do all my work, then I need to (try to) make an entire piece of music in the wee hours of the morning the night before the lesson, and my work suffers. There really isn't a happy medium either! And on top of everything, my family's short on cash ATM, and I need to get myself my first job. Hard to do that because the only places I have an interest in working at only hire those 18 or older. I just turned 17 this august. I'd rather die than have to work at a fast food joint... Besides, I can't really look for a job as I don't have any time for that either!

And I wont even start on how much Ive grown apart from the pony community because of all this!

[Fimbulin]

...

Ponies aren't life so it's ok to distance yourself from the community. I've had to do it since college started, but I'm surviving ok. I had to drop out of english just so I can handle everything else, and I'm making money while here, so I have near no time for anything else but what's needed done. It stinks you have to attempt to settle with the iPad situation and stick it out, but if you haven't yet, go talk to your teachers. They might be able to help you figure things out or maybe vice-versa. They might not know how hard the assignments are for their students. I've had that in music theory class here at college, where it seemed that the teacher was assigning what he could get done in an hour and assuming we could work just as fast when it was taking us three or more hours to do the homework EVERY DAY. I talked to him, and now the assignments are less and he helps out in doing them all. There's not much else I can say but stick it out, hope you find a good job, and don't give up music!

That is all.

[Grace Note]

Life is a fragile thing and should be cherished.

Recently, on Saturday October 20th, I got news that after a hard battle with cancer, my father passed away. A part of me knew this was coming, but that knowledge doesn't make the process any less rough. I'm so happy and thankful for my family and friends, but especially my family.

I actually give props to my dad; he lasted longer than I thought, but now I know why he suffered to last. Saturday was my deceased older sister's golden birthday. She would have been twenty this year. And I can tell now that my dad knew that, too. That stubborn man suffered so he could rest in peace on the day of his daughter's birth.

I love you, dad. So much. And I'll always miss you.

R.I.P. James F. Fleming (May 10th, 1955 - October 20th 2012).

[vladnuke]

Life is a fragile thing and should be cherished.

Recently, on Saturday October 20th, I got news that after a hard battle with cancer, my father passed away. A part of me knew this was coming, but that knowledge doesn't make the process any less rough. I'm so happy and thankful for my family and friends, but especially my family.

I actually give props to my dad; he lasted longer than I thought, but now I know why he suffered to last. Saturday was my deceased older sister's golden birthday. She would have been twenty this year. And I can tell now that my dad knew that, too. That stubborn man suffered so he could rest in peace on the day of his daughter's birth.

I love you, dad. So much. And I'll always miss you.

R.I.P. James F. Fleming (May 10th, 1955 - October 20th 2012).

My heart goes out towards you and your family. Just hang in there.

[Watashig]

Hi guys.

All the hugs to you <3

There are plenty of shoulders to lean on here, and I'm glad for that.

[Pseudo]

So I just DJ'd a college party about a week ago. Pretty big stuff. 1 hour, no pony things or anything, just some solid techno/house. Had about 5 people come up and ask if I made it, 10 people wanting skrillex and even more wanting.... Gangnam Style.... *shudder*

Party still went off, but I'm fucking tired of all the mainstream requests. I want to play and mix things that are conceptual. If people would listen, I'd mix Hrvatski, Squarepusher, LOL Boys and probably Chrome Sparks. I don't mind what I mix, really, I take requests for genres/songs in advance. But enough pendulum and pitbull, I don't want to join two useless songs together anyway.

Even my mentor an old guy, still knows the golden rule to winning a joint over.

"You will never get anywhere by playing the Top 40." ~Sir Chris Deakin

[Pseudo]

Oh yeah, and the intolerance, especially from a country that feeds off of America's culture (Australia), is astoundingly harsh.

[Nine Volt]

Oh yeah, and the intolerance, especially from a country that feeds off of America's culture (Australia), is astoundingly harsh.

Intolerance towards who and from who?
Are you talking about Australian intolerance or American intolerance?

[Pseudo]

I get so confused when I vent... Sorry...

I mean that everyone is very intolerant due to a highly American influcence in Australia.

===HISTORY TIME, KIDS! (Just in case)===
During WW2, when Australia was defending in Papua New Guinea against the Axis (Japan, specifically), Britain failed to provide military assistance for Australia. The United States saw this as an opportunity and sent a ton of sexy man-soldiers (which all the ladies fell for) down under, carrying their culture with them. A lot of them stayed after the war and so, Australia has not much of a culture. Be it music or food or lifestyle, it's mostly American.

And so, this is more just the intolerance of my audience, nothing personal against America, it's a pretty awesome place to be...
Still pretty angry, though.

[Nine Volt]

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