Filly's Apology Note (I NEED to get this out to you guys)

[Viricide Filly]

I don't care if this is in the wrong thread or shouldn't be here.
This isn't directed towards anyone either apart from myself.

I've been in this fandom for...nearly 2 years now. I've met a lot of people. A LOT of people. Some of which have become my best friends, relationships, collaberation partners etc.
Some of which I have mercilessly turned into enemies.

I used to be called Faux-Pas, last year, between March and I think August. I knew practicely nobody, didn't know much about the fandom, thought it was incredible, amazing. Thought I would fit in perfectly no matter how bad I was at what I tried to contribute with. Then I met some people and everything changed. I was added to a skype chat with TuXe and Blaze.

They criticised my Faux-Pas work, an experience I had NEVER been subjected to. I thought I was cool, high and mighty. I was brought down and i couldn't ask for a better thing to happen because I had an insentive, a drive to improve, possible tutors and stuff opened up for me. New oppertunities within the fandom, skype contacts of good musicians who's music taught me stuff. All I had to do was listen.

>Listen
>Yeah, right.

I was called Viricide Filly by this point. Skipping forward a few months I had released still shitty albums which 5COPY subsequently insutled etc etc yada yada. Fast forward to my second song submission to "MonsterBronyMedia"
They let me in, and looking for diamonds was the channel's 18th post. I didn't realise it at the time, but regardless of how stupid you think this channel is, Brandon, the owner, worked hard as fuck to get it to you guys. He worked for ages trying to get the video style to match Monstercat. It wasn't a bad parody. It wasn't even a parody, it was a fan-mirror'd channel designed to bring good brony music.
The guys put up with insults from EVERY direction.
Later on, I became one of those directions.
Brandon 'neglected' the skype chat. Was hardly on. We got bored, so me and my friends decided to take matters into our own hands.
What really happened: Brandon was in hospital day after day visiting his sick relative while i plotted against him like a douchebag thinking everyone else was on my side.

but you know what? That's not even the half of it. I...left and made MiAmore Media just to spite him
I made up stuff about him, insulted the channel on forums etc
This guy PROMOTED me.
This guy got me a massive boost in my music career. This guy made me carry on and I through it back in his face and why the hell did i only realise this just now?

It's made me realise though. I've been an asshole to nearly every single person in this entire forum, whether it be to their face, behind their backs etc. If you exist i've made personal attacks against you. That's how it worked. I didn't even realise I was doing it but now I do.
It's made me wonder if I'm either a horrible person, or completely oblivious and blind to what I'm doing, or both? What do I do? what SHOULD I do?
I made a new thread for this because i wanted this to reach a lot of people.

Someone once told me that friendship was magic (Gee where have I heard this cliche before) but maybe I should have actually listened to that.
I'm sorry. This comes from the bottom of my heart and pretty much every tear I've randomly shed after I've been given a lecture that I completely forget about the next day. I'm not trying to be a drama queen, I honestly believe I should not only apologise to certain people but the forum as a whole, fuck, even the FANDOM as a whole. I'm SORRY.

EDIT: It doesn't matter if you lock this, I'll still get it to the people who really matter.

[itroitnyah]

Personally, unless you're being a dick just because, if you have a reason behind why you're being a dick (such as telling the truth like it is), it shouldn't matter, and if people are going to take it negatively then that's their own problem.

If Monsterbrony Media's goal is to feature pretty much every producer that already has a popular reputation with the fandom, they're doing a good job. Thanks MBM. Regardless of how much work that Brandon puts into this channel, I still hold to my opinion that a lot of it's subscribers are subscribed because either MBM is featuring an artist that the subscriber likes or because it's "Whoa, a big popular thing that I like, but for bronies! Woohoo!" type of bandwagoning that's causing some people to sub. Regardless of whether or not Brandon was visiting sick relatives in the hospital, it won't make me feel very much remorse for MBM. Brandon definitely sounds like he's a great guy if he's visiting relatives in the hospital.

I feel like I've been a douche towards a lot of people on this forum as well, but I never try and be a douche just because. And I don't feel sorry for any of the times I may have been a dick towards people as long as those times weren't me being cruel on purpose.

[Viricide Filly]

I think you missed the moral of this post completely.
It was a personal apology note to basically everyone i could think of.

[itroitnyah]

I know, I'm just putting in my opinion over it.

If you want to apologize, uh, apology accepted, I guess? I don't feel wronged or insulted by you in any way, and I can't remember a time where I ever was, so I feel like this doesn't apply to me :S

[Sonarch]

Well if it applies to me in any way, you are forgiven :3

[ExoBassTix]

We've had some incidents in the past. Multiple incidents.
Some that I regret having had. Some that I wish you'd understand how they were wrong in so many ways.

It's good that you're opening up though. I don't like to be angry at someone, especially if it's very old news.
Even if it made more people than just me angry.
Just thanks for opening up. I appreciate the gesture. And I kindly accept your apology.

[ganondox]

I have no qualms against you, and I applaude you for having the courage to post this.

[caprixsnare]

<3 <3 ~i was never angry at u bro~<3 <3

[topitmunkeydog]

I'mmm

I enjoy knowing you on this site, viri. Please don't leave.

[Viricide Filly]

I ain't leavin' ever, just wanted to get a whole bunch of stuff off my chest.

[topitmunkeydog]

O I thought you were leaving :{)

[CaptainFluffatun]

Later on, I became one of those directions.

[Viricide Filly]

You are both an ass and a genius, sir.

[Undefined Variable]

I became one of those directions.

[simonli2575]

MY SIDES!

[Viricide Filly]

I hate you SO MUCH omfg I can't breathe
This better not become a thing

[ExoBassTix]

Too late
Prepare.

[Sonarch]

Oh I think this has already become a thing

[CaptainFluffatun]

I win.

But yeah feel better man.

[Viricide Filly]

Oh I think this has already become a thing

Shit

[ExoBassTix]

When I get on Skype in a few hours, I won't be surprised if the Church has captured this already.

[PropellerEscape]

When I get on Skype in a few hours, I won't be surprised if the Church has captured this already.

Oh God :3

And Viri, I accept your apology. Even if I don't know you that well, at least you're standing up and apologising for what's happened, and I respect that.

[S.P.P]

TOP LEL

[Lying Pink]

I have no qualms against you, and I applaude you for having the courage to post this.

This

But also this bloody hell

[Acsii]

I dont think I'll ever be able to forgive you after what you said to me