The hugging/venting thread

[Magnitude Zero]

P.S. I know one party isn't something to get all worked up about, but it is a tipping point. My life is a mess, really. I tend to get mad at myself for being sad (because i think im overreacting) then I get sadder, rinse, repeat. It's awful.

Feeling bad for feeling bad. You'd be surprised how common that is. If you're worried you might be overreacting, chances are you're not overreacting. You need to accept that sometimes you're going to feel like shit emotionally, and that's okay because you're human. The worst thing you can do is bottle it up; that's something I struggle with quite a bit, and it really does not make my life any easier. For starters, it's okay to get worked up about that party because, frankly, I'd be pretty pissed too. But it's important to not take that out on yourself, and (I know I don't need to say this, but just in case) to not take it out on your friend either.

Also,

[XXDarkShadow79XX]

Thanks. I definitely want angry at anyone else besides myself. I really didn't blame her. But you're definitely right. I can't get stuck in these infinite loops of frustration and sadness.

But seriously, Stan SB - Dead gets me through everything. I wish he was a part of the fandom. But lets not derail this thread. That's something for another time.

[Codeum]

Welp just lost another friend from the "brony fandom" Over reasons I'd consider stupid. Still feel bad though. maybe this is the world telling me that I should move on from Brony music. I'll miss the EQD features as troublesome as they are to get. This totally ruined my high. I was feeling pretty good for a while there.

Thoughts?

[Freewave]

I think you read into too many of your problems with others Codeum. It's clear you've had a lot of problems in the past on various forums and with various friends and some of that is the age and some of it is how you likely communicate with others. I know you have issues there but don't scrap working in the community when people like your music, you have a dedicated fanbase, and the brony community is not the reason that this issue happened. You'd be starting from scratch if you leave us and your problems communicating with others are just part of the REAL world. Just work on seeing things from other pov (or asking others how they feel if you are unsure), always consider apologizing if it was over something really unimportant., and just see this as a temporary low and absolutely no reason to quit. We all have lows and have to consider if it's worth sticking around but that's perfectly normal. Don't ragequit when life gets hard; take a timeout and get happy again.

[Codeum]

I think you read into too many of your problems with others Codeum. It's clear you've had a lot of problems in the past on various forums and with various friends and some of that is the age and some of it is how you likely communicate with others. I know you have issues there but don't scrap working in the community when people like your music, you have a dedicated fanbase, and the brony community is not the reason that this issue happened. You'd be starting from scratch if you leave us and your problems communicating with others are just part of the REAL world. Just work on seeing things from other pov (or asking others how they feel if you are unsure), always consider apologizing if it was over something really unimportant., and just see this as a temporary low and absolutely no reason to quit. We all have lows and have to consider if it's worth sticking around but that's perfectly normal. Don't ragequit when life gets hard; take a timeout and get happy again.

I would apologize, but he blocked me on skype and wont answer my messages on here :/ And I was going to collaborate with him too. It just doesn't make sense because he's had far better reasons to block me in the past and this little problem was what did it. We hadn't had any issues for at least a month. this was totally out of the blue for me. (no pun on my color scheme intended)

[Freewave]

Sucks man. Give him time. TBH a good friend of mine blocked a close friend of his just cause he needed to get some tracks done and didn't want to lose time chatting until 2am in the morning like they often do. He'll unblock him when he gets the track done but he just needs to focus. Before you jump to conclusions wait until he gets back to you or you let a little time past. It's easy to think they're wishing you ill but it may be something completely unrelated for all you know. They may be busy with life.

[vladnuke]

I fucking suck at calculus.

I mean, I really, really fucking suck at calculus.

I don't fucking get anything about this shit, all this inverse derivative crap is giving me a headache right now, i couldn't do anything from the homework, and I'm failing the goddamn class. I have never once failed a class in my life. Every single time I come into the classroom, I walk out knowing fuck all. If I'm lucky, the next time we meet and go over the shit we had to do for homework, he'll actually go over the shit and then I'll figure out what I was missing. I hate my teacher, not as a person, he's a great guy, but as a teacher. He doesn't go over the whole assignment, he gives tests where I basically either get a b or fail the whole damn thing, and I'm just fucking tired of all the gormless lectures where huge chunks of explanations are missed and no one catches it, because that would be the blind leading the blind there. I'm sure someone gets it and can do this shit. I can't. Fuck this fucking shit.

[Codeum]

Sucks man. Give him time. TBH a good friend of mine blocked a close friend of his just cause he needed to get some tracks done and didn't want to lose time chatting until 2am in the morning like they often do. He'll unblock him when he gets the track done but he just needs to focus. Before you jump to conclusions wait until he gets back to you or you let a little time past. It's easy to think they're wishing you ill but it may be something completely unrelated for all you know. They may be busy with life.

He said he was tired of me :/

[LunchBagMusic]

Angry venting time with lotsa bad language:

So last might I was updating itunes because, hell, that's the right thing to do. I was running Skype and Chrome in the background (which I'd done heaps of times before - so it was all cool). So the download happens, and then the install starts, and then it sorta slows down (stops) at like 98% and I'm like
"Okay, just leave it for a bit".

It stayed that way for 40 minutes before I was like "Fuckit" and pressed cancel.

Cancel did nothing for ten minutes, so I ended the process because I'm an impatient fuck.

Computer Freeze shortly afterwards. Reset button. Computer dun work no more.

Fuck. Fuck me. Fuck iTunes. Fuck everything. Fuck.

[Counterwise]

I took a biology class at the start of this year. I'm extremely interested in all different sciences, and I enjoy the knowledge that I gain from the class. Though in tests, I just do horribly. Today I did a test, and thought I did very well. It was out of 40 marks, and the teacher called out that I got 30 marks or 80%. I was fairly happy about that score, though my confidence and satisfaction soon vanished when he realised he called out the other kids test, since he has the same name as me. Turns out I only got 24 marks or 65%. Not only is that a rather disappointing score, but I also looked like a complete idiot in front of the whole class. My average for all of the tests that I've done throughout this year is probably about 70%, which isn't failing, though it's like, the worst in the whole damn class. Though it basically feels like I'm failing, since I'm continuing the subject next year, and the subject will only get more difficult.

I don't get it

I understand everything that the teacher goes over in class, and I study my brain out before tests. I've always done well in my science classes, so my parents expect me to do really well in this class too. Should I study more? Should I pay even more attention in class? I've never been in this sort of situation before...

I'm just really stressed out these days. At least I'm on holidays for 2 weeks now, and I can take a break from this crap.

I just don't get it...

[Navron]

Give yourself a smaller margin for pass/fail.

In the military, any academic tests we take have a minimum score of 80% to pass. Anything less and we fail.

I used to be a horrible test taker in high school, so the smaller margin for error basically forced me to study, and now I'm one of the best test takers in all my classes, advancement exams, etc.

[soup2504]

I'm probably going to get kicked out of my grandmother's house, and this basically means I'm going to be forced to go to a trashy school full of the shittiest people I have ever seen (Not to mention the 10 pregnant girls I counted when I went there to check it out). Oh, and there have been shootings there. The thing is, I didn't even DO anything to get my grandmother pissed off enough to threaten kicking me out. I was just working on a project that's due tomorrow, minding my own business, and she keeps walking over and bothering me, having me move furniture, put the dishes away, etc. I told her to stop, because I needed to finish this project. What does she do? She starts fucking yelling at me and talking about how my mother is a "useless piece of shit that never deserved to be born" and that "She doesn't even deserve to have a roof over her head", and other things that are a bit too much to mention here... She's also saying some things about me which I'm not even going to HINT at, and she said she was going to kick me out of the house. The fun part is, all I said was "Please stop, I'm trying to finish this project.". How the hell did everything else come up? You know... I'm done dealing with this shit... I don't fucking know what to do, but all I know is I want to get as far away from my family as soon as I can. There's only one person in my family I can actually stand... If I get kicked out, then I'm done. I'll decide what to do if and when it happens.

[vladnuke]

Angry venting time with lotsa bad language:

So last might I was updating itunes because, hell, that's the right thing to do. I was running Skype and Chrome in the background (which I'd done heaps of times before - so it was all cool). So the download happens, and then the install starts, and then it sorta slows down (stops) at like 98% and I'm like
"Okay, just leave it for a bit".

It stayed that way for 40 minutes before I was like "Fuckit" and pressed cancel.

Cancel did nothing for ten minutes, so I ended the process because I'm an impatient fuck.

Computer Freeze shortly afterwards. Reset button. Computer dun work no more.

Fuck. Fuck me. Fuck iTunes. Fuck everything. Fuck.

What's your CPU? Did you change anything recently? Mac or Windows?
Damn, that sucks. Does it turn on at least? If it doesn't, check your connections. If those are fine, check your PSU, that should at least turn on. Make sure nothing is overheating.

[vladnuke]

I'm probably going to get kicked out of my grandmother's house, and this basically means I'm going to be forced to go to a trashy school full of the shittiest people I have ever seen (Not to mention the 10 pregnant girls I counted when I went there to check it out). Oh, and there have been shootings there. The thing is, I didn't even DO anything to get my grandmother pissed off enough to threaten kicking me out. I was just working on a project that's due tomorrow, minding my own business, and she keeps walking over and bothering me, having me move furniture, put the dishes away, etc. I told her to stop, because I needed to finish this project. What does she do? She starts fucking yelling at me and talking about how my mother is a "useless piece of shit that never deserved to be born" and that "She doesn't even deserve to have a roof over her head", and other things that are a bit too much to mention here... She's also saying some things about me which I'm not even going to HINT at, and she said she was going to kick me out of the house. The fun part is, all I said was "Please stop, I'm trying to finish this project.". How the hell did everything else come up? You know... I'm done dealing with this shit... I don't fucking know what to do, but all I know is I want to get as far away from my family as soon as I can. There's only one person in my family I can actually stand... If I get kicked out, then I'm done. I'll decide what to do if and when it happens.

How old are you? I'd say just try to avoid your grandma for awhile, give her some space to vent.

[soup2504]

How old are you? I'd say just try to avoid your grandma for awhile, give her some space to vent.

I am the magical age of 16. As for trying to avoid her, it's absolutely impossible, because she will keep bothering me until she gets a response, no matter what. I have to deal with her 5 days each week, and I have already lost my patience with her a long time ago. She's an unreasonable person, and she always thinks everything she says is right, and refuses to EVER believe she's wrong, and this can help her when she's lying, because she will start believing her lies. There are so many things I could say about her, but I'm just going to stop here, as I really don't feel up to talking about this right now.

[LunchBagMusic]

@Vlad

It's all fixed. iTunes was fucking with something in the log-on phase of booting. I could boot in safe mode, copy all files across to an external HDD and then format disk and reinstall windows. My PC's getting to the 'ailing' part of it's life, though. This format/reinstall probably did it good.

[Friv]

@Vlad

It's all fixed. iTunes was fucking with something in the log-on phase of booting. I could boot in safe mode, copy all files across to an external HDD and then format disk and reinstall windows. My PC's getting to the 'ailing' part of it's life, though. This format/reinstall probably did it good.

Solution #2: don't use itunes

[LunchBagMusic]

don't use itunes

I so would, but I've got like $300 worth of music on there I'm not actually ready to part with (most of it is CDs though. CDS AND BOUGHT MUSIC AND NOTHING ELSE. NOPE. NOTHING.). When I move out I'll just start anew with another media manager or something, and ...aquire my purchases again. 'till then I've just got to go with what works for the family.

[Pickslide1992]

*Warning: First World Problems! Proceed with caution!*

With that bombastic disclaimer out of the way, let's get down to business. First off, my headphones are broken. I'm surprised they lasted as long as they did, as they're, by and large, cheap Chinese pieces of crap. That said, I need new ones, but here's where the FWP comes into play: I already have a laundry list of things I need to buy, and most good headphones don't come cheap, so I need to pay up or get another piece of crap like my last pair.

On top of that, I've been severely lacking in the idea department. It's like things around me are making sure I don't make music whenever I do get an idea, like I can't put out a decent track even if I wanted to. This headphone thing was the cherry on top.

In addition, I feel like I can never relax anymore. If it isn't school, it's my hypochondria saying I have a disease because I have one vague symptom. When it is school, it's that I have so much low confidence that anything I turn in I instantly think it's garbage and I fear my professors will rip it apart and boot me out of the class.

I have a hypothesis, though. Anxiety and such is something my family is born with (Kind of like how diabetes can be traced from family history more than other causes), so it's a nadir I have to deal with, as no amount of medication or therapy has helped me. I'm only 19 (Soon to be 20), I'm too young to be fearing death.

[Fimbulin]

http://www.monoprice.com/products/produ ... 1&format=2

I think this might be what you are looking for. Believe me, it's not worth looking at the price to determine the quality. These guys went way above and beyond with these headphones.

[Magnitude Zero]

I need to vent, because I'm pissed off.

When I joined MLR, I thought "Wow, here's a community full of fellow musicians, mature as fuck and all willing to help each other out when they need it." I thought that for a good few months, too. But recently all the respect I thought I had for a good portion of the people here has just gone to shit.

I wanted to get more involved with this community, so a couple months ago I put myself down for a bunch of compilation albums. I was hoping to work with people I could learn from, help out, and potentially collab with. What I found instead was a bunch of selfish, immature fuckholes making constant sex jokes in broken "dolan-speak" English that they seem to think is so hilarious, spamming their song/WIP links and passing it off as a joke ("SHAMELESS SELF-PLUG LOL!!!!!!!!!") while contributing absolutely nothing to anything. They don't help anyone with anything and act like high-and-mighty, disrespectful dickwads when you don't get their in-"jokes" or - God fucking forbid - try to help them.

It's very possible - probable, actually, now that I think of it - that I am mistaking the loud minority for the majority, and I'm sorry if you think I'm targeting you because I'm probably not. But am I the only one who's noticed this? Am I the only one who's irritated by this?

I'm not actually looking for anyone to reply to this, or for anything to change, or whatever. Just venting anger born of loss of faith in humanity, lack of musical inspiration, and general stress that seems to be at an all-time high lately.

[ChromaticChaosPony]

Are we allowed to post apologies in this thread?

[ArcaneSoul]

Just.....putting this here i geuss.


Everytime i see a plushie on deviantart whether i type in the words of a pony or just bored, i just get really sad and jealous of all you rich people who actually HAVE an outlet for cash while i am stuck here. People keep saying "get a job, get a job, get a job" and do you know how fucking bad i wanna get a job? But i can't because it would like require me an identification card. So then your gonna ask me "well don't you get one?"

BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A BIRTH CERTIFICATE! MY PARENTS CAN'T FIND MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE ANYWHERE. HELL IT MUST BE THROWN AWAY OR SOMETHING!

So i am just stuck here to hug a pillow because i am a lonely person. I wish i could just ask for one and get it shipped to me but nooooo these things take time which i understand.

But....do you know how much it hurts? To see someone make a comment on a plushie saying,

"Hey thanks for the 3rd plushie."

Lucky son of a bitch.........

Anyway yeah just venting. I could do something like make a song but i would have to put shit loads and shit loads and shit loads of effort to make it = the amount of 100's of dollars but into one of these cuddly little things. My music isn't even that good anyway! So.....yeah.....just venting.....

[LunchBagMusic]

Not having a birth certificate is pretty serious.
You should devote some time talking to your local authority about where you can get a new one, if you haven't already. A quick phonecall or something to the right government department could fix that. I'm not from the States, so iunno what you'd do.

But seriously - fix that. Then apply for work. Then aquire plushie.

[Pickslide1992]

I feel the same way, despite the fact I only have one plushie that was a Christmas gift. You have to keep your eyes out for some steals. For instance, someone I know snagged a Fluttershy for only $70, and the seller usually makes ponies for around $200. Then again, this was an auction and the person was not yet well known.