The hugging/venting thread

[SpyPie]

Well, my time for venting is now over, since I just got my music stuff backed up off of the laptop I had been using, which broke, but something occurred to me.

It's been a week now since I've made any music or had any access at all to my DAW... And it killed me. I was on the verge of tears this morning (a grand feat, since I honestly do not remember the last time I cried) wondering what I would do if I ended up being unable to back up my stuff. I'm only wondering now... Could that be just a little unhealthy? It's certainly an indicator that I'm serious about music, but I wonder if I could be overdoing it a bit

I know EXAAACTLY how you feel, I've been on vacation, I've been without my DAW for a month. I'm about to go absolutely nuts, I'm biting my arms and Shiet. It's making me Hate Summer Vacation :/. I don't know how to help you. But At least you can know that there is someone who is having hard times as well

[vladnuke]

Well, my time for venting is now over, since I just got my music stuff backed up off of the laptop I had been using, which broke, but something occurred to me.

It's been a week now since I've made any music or had any access at all to my DAW... And it killed me. I was on the verge of tears this morning (a grand feat, since I honestly do not remember the last time I cried) wondering what I would do if I ended up being unable to back up my stuff. I'm only wondering now... Could that be just a little unhealthy? It's certainly an indicator that I'm serious about music, but I wonder if I could be overdoing it a bit

Not at all, man. Anytime I get pulled off of music when I'm actually getting something done, I get so agitated that I feel like punching the offending party in the face. Seriously, it got so bad while I was in Russia that I had to start everything at 12 at night just so no one would bother me.. It was just agravating. I feel like I have ADD or something, if I get pulled off a project for 5 min, when I come back I've forgotten what I was doing. When I'm away and feel a song come on, I desperately search for my pen and paper and frantically write shit down, even though I know that I won't be able to use it. I swear, I'm probably gonna have to carry my laptop with me everywhere and just whip it out in places where it doesn't belong.

[thatguyzeke]

Within a month,
My Girlfriend of 2 years left to go to college 9 hours away.
My best friend decided he is moving 12 hours away to try out for a big named gaming team
And I got kicked out of my house by my mom. I don't know my dad and can only stay with my Grandma for a month.
And tonight, My Girlfriend tells me she is thinking of dating other guys....
As of right now, life isn't going well.

[LunchBagMusic]

@zeke, that's horrible.

Hugs man, all of them.

[thatguyzeke]

@zeke, that's horrible.

Hugs man, all of them.

Thanks. It's one of those days I'm not sure how to cope with.

[Freewave]

Within a month,
My Girlfriend of 2 years left to go to college 9 hours away.
My best friend decided he is moving 12 hours away to try out for a big named gaming team
And I got kicked out of my house by my mom. I don't know my dad and can only stay with my Grandma for a month.
And tonight, My Girlfriend tells me she is thinking of dating other guys....
As of right now, life isn't going well.

jesus that is some awful news. i guess it's time to embrace change vs trying to deny it's happening. if she's moving on you're after it's a long distance things there's little you can do about that. got any friend's who you can room up with after your grandma?

i lived on a friend's couch for a month for $100 when i was in my early 20's and then stabilized with a roommate and an apt after that so maybe look at that month with your grandma as a time to really plan out what you need to do next, hope you've got a job already to get some funds set.

[Trillionage]

Damn that's horrible. I know it's not my business, but why did your mom kick you out (if you don't feel comfortable you obviously don't have to tell me).

[thatguyzeke]

Damn that's horrible. I know it's not my business, but why did your mom kick you out (if you don't feel comfortable you obviously don't have to tell me).

Me and her never got along, so it was bound to happen sometime sadly.


And yeah, I'm trying to find a place now. A friend of mine said I could crash at his place as a worst case for cheap, so I shouldn't be sleeping in my car or anything thankfully.

Just everything at once man. o_o

EDIT: And she ended it.

[Freewave]

12 killed, 38 injured at midnight Dark Knight premiere in Colorado.

http://www.cnn.com/2012/07/20/us/colora ... google_cnn

This was local news to me i just found out about so I'm a little shook. They were just interviewing some of these fans ~10 for the local evening news prepping for the movie and now i wake up and some of those same people may be dead. Just terrible news.

[Trillionage]

Nobody you know was there, right?

[Freewave]

Nobody you know was there, right?

Well i have one friend who lives in Aurora, who just got back from SD comic-con, and who MIGHT have gone to the premiere but he hopefully had to work the next day and did not. I don't want to wake him up yet as he's not a morning person but I'll likely call in an hour to make sure he wasn't there as I'm a little nervous.

[edit] Ok found it he's ok, he was planning on seeing it this afternoon. All his friends texted and were worried as well so i wasn't the only one freaked out. Whew. Doesn't make me feel any better about the event but glad that it didn't hit home.

Sorry if I hijacked this thread, sometimes the ponies are just a means to escape how awful the rest of the world can truly be and then it comes knocking on your door one day.

[thatguyzeke]

I've heard about that. Terrible.... I really hope the families of those that were killed will be alright.
Was it just one guy who did it?

[Trillionage]

That what it seems. They still haven't even found a motive for the guy, but all evidence points to him being insane.

[Freewave]

Yeah one guy, had 3 different rifles, just kept reloading and picking off people as they tried to run out and leave. His whole house is booby trapped too so he's been planning this for awhile. Looks like he may have been influenced by the movie as there's a few news stories that he's calling himself the Joker.
http://abcnews.go.com/Blotter/aurora-da ... d=16822251
He was getting his masters in neuropsychology just a month before.

[thatguyzeke]

Yeah one guy, had 3 different rifles, just kept reloading and picking off people as they tried to run out and leave. His whole house is booby trapped too so he's been planning this for awhile. Looks like he may have been influenced by the movie as there's a few news stories that he's calling himself the Joker.
http://abcnews.go.com/Blotter/aurora-da ... d=16822251
He was getting his masters in neuropsychology just a month before.

That's....really really creepy.

I'm just hoping that huge number of injured folks make it out alright...

[Facade]

time to vent
i don't like most of my irl friends
i take a look at the talents thread and can't think of anything i'm talented at
come to think of it i'm mediocre in everything i do and or try maybe my special talent is being super average?
i also feel lonely.
and all the girls in my area suck (I've looked can't find a single one)
that's mainly the reason i don't want to date anybody/thing
i guess i have sleeping issues cause i don't think everyone has problems getting to sleep
i barley eat yet i'm still at normal weight (i was actually surprised when i found out)
its not that i don't want to eat its that i get full really fast and then i don't eat lunch and have a small dinner
i have bad hygiene habits (i wish i didnt)
my dad lives on the other side of the country
my mom is gone most of the day
my sister is gone a lot as well
i have something i want to tell someone but i don't know who and how :/
the thing i want to tell someone is really depressing (for me at least)
i feel like im not going to get anywhere with music :/
i think i have some mental health issues but im not 100% sure its what i (and a few other people) think it is :/
im depressed slightly right now
and now im more depressed cause i know im going to get more depressed
this is probably really long so i'll stop there thanks for listening
edit: oh and on top of not liking my friends im too shy irl to make more :/
not only that but all the kids in my area are hateful quick to judge mean and not very like-able :/

[Navron]

Be your own badass man.

Do any of my friends skydive? No
Do any of my friends fly in helos for a living? No
Do any of my friends make electronic music? No
Do any of my friends do art? One

Welcome to the world of mediocrity, and living what some call the average life. They go to school, they go to college, they live to party, they eventually find a job, they eventually get married, and then they experience a mid life crisis when they realize their life is halfway over, and they haven't done anything extraordinary.

Facade, you're already a step above the rest. Don't let other people's "supposed" success drown out your own accomplishments, and don't let yourself think that if you aren't living what most call a normal life, that you're a failure.

[Fimbulin]

So I eat twice a day too. I eat once for breakfast and then a $1 sandwich during the work day. I'm 5,10 and weigh almost 130. I don't know if that's healthy or not, but I seem to be surviving and always feel ok health wise.
I have trouble sleeping too. It's just hard to fall asleep when I'm on my left side and my heart starts aching from being pressured against the bed, so I HAVE to sleep on my back or right side. It's so annoying. I start feeling sore from my bed.
I would never date any girl in this city, and the only one I really like at the moment is a video game friend that lives halfway across the States that I haven't chatted with besides dropping a few notes on facebook for almost a year. I so wish I can see her in RL sometime
I always feel mediocre and terrible when I preform classical guitar. I hear absolutely every mistake I make and wonder if everyone else hears them. It gets depressing when I'm nervous, trying to play a piece that I've practiced so much and my palms start sweating and I cannot grip the guitar, making me more nervous and self conscious.
I know of few talents I'm good at. I'm a mediocre singer, mediocre electronic musician, mediocre everything.
And I work almost all day it seems, and have little time with my family.

That's some of my life for you. It's really not that bad, I guess, because I look at life and what God gives me, and what I have to look forward to, and it's always high hopes and great expectations. Like, I keep setting dates that I'm gonna go visit the girl, and it never works out, but that's not a problem because the calendar doesn't end. I don't eat much, but I'm not getting any unhealthier and I've been this way for a while. Some things you just cannot do anything about, but whatever you can, just make the best of it, and have those expectations that you can improve on your attitude in the future. There's nothing wrong in that, and it'll help you to be a more positive person. If your friends must be online, so be it. Join them in fun and chat with people. Can't sleep? Meditate on your life and what you can do tomorrow. Your attitude will improve.

Stay positive. Take it. Make the best of it.

[MorteMcAdaver]

I'd say NavyBrony put it best.

[Fimbulin]

Yep. Just threw my part in, because maybe it'll help. I know it felt a bit good for me to vent a little myself, and collect my thoughts.

[MorteMcAdaver]

Yep. Just threw my part in, because maybe it'll help. I know it felt a bit good for me to vent a little myself, and collect my thoughts.

Oh, I didn't intend to competitively compare the consolations.

Incidentally, I think we can refer folks to the very hopeful and uplifting melody that you have in your Never Back Down remix.

ADDENDUM: Oh, and Fimbulin, checking out your work, I'd say you're far from mediocre. Looking forward to more of your compositions!

[Freewave]

Facade if you feel that you can't get out of your funk just realize it's ok to talk to a professional. It's perfectly normal to have lows, and to struggle with how you fit in with the world or even this community. It's another thing if you feel depressed ALL the time and can't get out of it or if you sense something is really wrong. But do realize that how you see the world and how you function within it is all about attitude, perception, and building your own little victories in life. All these revolve around positivity. You have to feel good about yourself and that you have the ability to change to really make an inroads. If your life isn't how you want it to be make changes but recognize also what makes you special and unique. But do not give up on yourself and just be content with being unhappy, that's just not fair to yourself.

[Facade]

Facade if you feel that you can't get out of your funk just realize it's ok to talk to a professional.

if only i had the money to and i don't want my parents know (has to do with me being shy)
so I'm gonna have to wait until i move out or something.
thanks for the advice though

Be your own badass man.

i think i shall
only one of my friends (one i actually like) does DH longboarding
and i just started.
i think i might have enough confidence to climb the entire hill i ride and go for it
i usually just climb 3/4 of the way. hopefully my back doesnt start hurting :/
anyways thanks for the help!

[thatguyzeke]

Update vent!
My Ex says she felt like we weren't really broken up and gets really loving and happy, then the next day is mentioning how i need to start getting over her..... It's just really confusing.
Also, I might have found a room to rent!! Possibly of a more permanent place to stay. Woo!

And Facade, be careful about how long you keep things in without talking to someone IRL.
Things like that build and bottle quickly. :/

[BinaryBludgeon]

Every time I don't go on a walk with my parents, they threaten to do something with my computer, or my internet, or some shit. I don't get it. It's irrational, stupid, and fucking annoying-- If you'll excuse my crude language. I was planning to go on a hike with them today-- Only problem is that we leave at 9:30 AM. I'm not even hungry by that time, I woke up an hour before, and my dad thinks I'm making an excuse to not go with him. Out of all of the possible people in my family, my parents are just the bloody worst.