The hugging/venting thread

[Acsii]

I'm talking to one tomorrow. Side note: Guns really don't sound like they do in movies and television. It's less of a bang and more of a low-pitched pop.

If anybody's interested here's the news story. Reading it kinda helped me to remember what happened.

that's good and I agree with that about the sound...

[Alycs]

Holy cow I was in Pittsburgh last year for the Intel Science Fair and I remember that street... thats weird...

And on my side, people being stabbed doesn't make that weird "squelching" sound that they make in movies, its more of a "swish" sound

[Acsii]

yea because the air rushes out of their lungs

[ExoBassTix]

Last Friday (the fifth) I saw somebody get shot a few feet away from me.

Copied from Tumblr:

Ok so I was on my way home from school and I was just walking and listening to music and I turned a corner and I saw these two guys fighting and there was another guy egging them on. I wasn’t sure what to do so I sort of walked past them and then one of the guys pulled a gun out of FUCKING NOWHERE and went to pistol whip the other guy but he dropped the gun and my brain went “GUN” and so I started getting out of there and as I was going I heard two gunshots and a guy was on the ground RIGHT FUCKING THERE and people were running so I ran too and some of my friends were farther down the road when it happened and they were like “what’s going on why are we running” and I sort of quickly spouted out the facts like “shots fired, two people were fighting, I saw a gun” and we kept running and then there were two more shots and we kept running and then one of my friends was like “oh shit I forgot my bag” and I was like “fuck I’ll go get it” so I just walked back and got it I don’t know what I was thinking I just went and picked it up and went back and holy shit just thinking about it makes me fucking scared

Even just typing this gives me a huge adrenaline rush and my senses get all sharp. The one thing I remember very clearly was how calm I was. I only started freaking out about five minutes later.

That sounds bad...
Strangely I can't imagine I'd be too crampy/reactive, I'd just stare and get lost in conclusions taking shape in my head.

But then again, never happened to me, and I'm young. So my mind might be playing tricks on me. But most of the time I don't have trouble keeping my emotions under control...

[Alycs]

i dont get this place
filled with nothing but hurt
you try but always fail
just by living you have failed
always searching for something that you'll never find
always being forced to take the worst because no one can have the best
no matter how much we try to be right
we will always be wrong...

i never under stood myself

For some reason I started reading those like lyrics to a song... : P

[topitmunkeydog]

BronyChip that needs to be a song.

[Acsii]

Don't you just love it when parents crie and stuff to make it look like they're the victim -_-

[Acsii]

Oh and last night she pointed out I don't go on Skype calls anymore... Trying to blame it on me telling them I'm trans... Well if she looks at the timeline I haven't been on Skype since I broke up with my boyfriend...

[Ed Viper]

Oh and last night she pointed out I don't go on Skype calls anymore... Trying to blame it on me telling them I'm trans... Well if she looks at the timeline I haven't been on Skype since I broke up with my boyfriend...

What kind of point is that even to bring up?

...How would she even know that you don't go on skype calls anymore?

[Acsii]

Exactly

[TranquilHooves]

i dont get this place
filled with nothing but hurt
you try but always fail
just by living you have failed
always searching for something that you'll never find
always being forced to take the worst because no one can have the best
no matter how much we try to be right
we will always be wrong...

i never under stood myself

For some reason I started reading those like lyrics to a song... : P

You try your best but it's not quite there...
:3

[Pickslide1992]

Okay, I'm now convinced I'm just not destined to own a car. I got one but the mirror is busted right after I got registration on the damn thing. And to cap it all off, I have to register for classes tomorrow and I have no idea if the classes I want will be filled up by the time I get to register. Could one of you fine gentlemen kindly shoot me or slip something in my drink? I appreciate it!

[topitmunkeydog]

I'll gladly slip some Felix Felicis into your drink. Or shoot you with a friendship cannon.

[VINXIS]

Wud u like sum jus?

[Mr. Bigglesworth]

My friend left the comic project, now it's down to 2 of us.
Well this is gonna get difficult. But maybe it can work.

[JSynth]

Darn it NI!
I'm going to buy your product, so stop sending me ads about it.
#firstworldproblems

[Pickslide1992]

Good news: Both problems I complained about are fixed.

Bad news: I have chronic insomnia to where my sleep patterns are f'ed up.

[Acsii]

I still miss my ex...

[VINXIS]

Bad news: I'm not getting launchpad
Good news: *HUGZ*

[Pickslide1992]

I've hit rock bottom. I've gotten to the point where I'm seriously contemplating suicide. You know how they say "Oh yeah, it'll never happen to me!" Well, I was one of those people, until I looked back and realized I don't deserve to live. I'm willing to bet most of my friends only tolerate me and are too polite to go away as they pity me, and I apparently have no regard on my education. Most of my music sounds like garbage and again, anyone who says otherwise is probably lying to make me feel better, and I feel like a waste of space. I'm unemployed, I don't have a driver's license, and I apparently can't spell as I've had to edit this a little bit. I mean, what worth do I have? I'm still single (And have been my entire life, mind you), but I need some confirmation that someone out there wants me alive. Because evidently, from what I see, nobody gives a two shits about me whether I live or die.

I don't want pity, I just need to know that there's a reason for me to live, because at this moment, I don't see any that are meaningful (Just loads of frivolous things)

[itroitnyah]

Are you doing what you love in life, whether it's music or such? I'd say that's more then enough reason to live.

[Pickslide1992]

Yes, but it's frivolous at best. I know it won't get me anywhere where I can make a living. I can't even get known in the first place, so what use is my musical talent (Yeah right) if it can't get me even to a frivolous position? It's a hobby at best.

[LoreRD]

I've hit rock bottom. I've gotten to the point where I'm seriously contemplating suicide. You know how they say "Oh yeah, it'll never happen to me!" Well, I was one of those people, until I looked back and realized I don't deserve to live. I'm willing to bet most of my friends only tolerate me and are too polite to go away as they pity me, and I apparently have no regard on my education. Most of my music sounds like garbage and again, anyone who says otherwise is probably lying to make me feel better, and I feel like a waste of space. I'm unemployed, I don't have a driver's license, and I apparently can't spell as I've had to edit this a little bit. I mean, what worth do I have? I'm still single (And have been my entire life, mind you), but I need some confirmation that someone out there wants me alive. Because evidently, from what I see, nobody gives a two shits about me whether I live or die.

I don't want pity, I just need to know that there's a reason for me to live, because at this moment, I don't see any that are meaningful (Just loads of frivolous things)

I know I'm not the best at talking to people when they're feeling down (I have very little Pinkie Pie in me, I suppose) but I believe me when I say that plenty of people here more than "just tolerate" you (including me), and would be devastated if they heard you'd killed yourself. I know I'd be. The most important thing to keep in mind is that NOBODY is worthless, no matter what you have to show for it.

When it comes to depression, you can go two ways. You can seek a professional whose job is to listen to your problems and help work them out, or figure out what's causing your depression and try to fix it. And when it comes to reasons to live, nothing is frivolous. If you've got a reason, any reason at all, it's worth it. And that's just the reasons for living that you have right now. Think of what your life might be like in the future! You have 3+ times your age ahead of you and life can change extraordinarily in that timeframe.

Imagine if someone born in the 20s killed themselves in the 40s. What if they'd ended up living way into the century and lived way up to the 2000s if they hadn't killed themselves? They just missed out on some of the most amazing inventions and moments in history. They'd never see the moon landing, they'd never know what a computer is and they'd never know about the incredible changes to civil rights that were brought on in the 20th century. And this century's progressing even faster than the last one. Just imagine what could happen within the next 50 years of technological, scientific and cultural evolution. Do you really want to miss out on all that?

[Aurum Noble]

I know how you feel, and I'm sorry to see that you've hit a massive nadir, but please, whatever you do, don't think about taking your life too soon.

There's still plenty of opportunity out there, and it's not like the world is going to end soon. I've been single for many years now, and I don't see a new girlfriend as a priority, nor do I see driving as important (I can still get by on public transport). You're amazing, and I'm saying this genuinely, not to make you feel better in a false way, and in fact, we both share the same tastes in music, especially retro-themed music. You've pioneered an area that has never been touched before in music, and the stuff you've done for LPS is really good. Even if the end result may not sound as you wanted it to sound, the best way is to learn from that, and try harder next time, or, failing that, collaborate with someone that has the same tastes in music, because having shared tastes means that the expertise can be applied.

I've had the same problem when I was starting out in music: I was going for 'quantity' rather than 'quality', then I realised that this was not the way to do it, and seconding a tweet Silva Hound put out a while back, it's best to not do it for the fame, because those that do are already failing, but that's not to say that fame is a bad thing: it's complimentary, and optional. I'm already innovating in many areas, but I'm just aiming low, because I don't want to big myself up to the extent that I'm going to have vitriol directed against me for being such a 'fame whore'. I want to have a 'sleeper hit', where I do my best and just do so because I enjoy it, but not expect overnight success.

In terms of getting known, the best way would be to use whatever promotional avenue is available. Ponyville Live is a very good example, because people can submit themselves to have their content featured, and because they're affiliated with the excellent Everfree Network, their content management system allows content to be distributed throughout affiliates, including EFN themselves. Another way of getting known is collaborating, maybe not with a big name (because they might already be working on big projects), but with someone mid-level, or someone who is just starting out, because your experience may help better theirs.

You still have opportunity, and life's too short to put yourself down. You're not worthless, you're worth something, even if you've got a potential that's yet to be explored. If anything, just reflect on what's causing all these problems, and see where you've gone wrong, and try to rectify it. As LoreRD said, think of what your life might be like in the future, because you never know that you'd eventually reach that zenith that you've always wanted.

[itroitnyah]

Yes, but it's frivolous at best. I know it won't get me anywhere where I can make a living. I can't even get known in the first place, so what use is my musical talent (Yeah right) if it can't get me even to a frivolous position? It's a hobby at best.

Well, you can make a living from making music, even if it isn't directly related to making music. Just get a job at a studio working as a studio assistant or sound technician or something. How long have you been making music anyways? It took Glaze 4 years to get where he is now, Alex S 7-8 years, Flux Pavillion 10 years, Bar 9 has been around for over 10 years it seems. If you get the idea of what I'm trying to say, just practice and eventually people will start to recognize you. It sounds a bit cliche, and maybe it is, but it's the honest truth.